To be organised or to not be organised
It is all a personal choice and one that I have to make.
One that I cannot wait for someone else to make for me.
I cannot wait for someone to come along, take me by the hand and say, here, let me help you. Actually that is wrong, I could wait, and being the social beings that we are, that is what some of us do. But the crux here is that I am ready to take that leap. That the hand offered doesn't have to shove me and that the mind attached to that hand doesn't have to feel like it is fully responsible for my success or failure. That is wholly and solely up to me, the person who controls her own destiny!
And another day! And where did that month go? Well, I think I have been going around in ever decreasing circles until I have slowly disappeared up my own ... vortex! Maybe I had better poke my head out today and say something!
To be honest, I have been living in fear, living in fear of expressing what emotions I have been feeling, in order not to feel them! But I sort of get the feeling that that plan is not working! Obviously! So my daily positive today is that am feeling hurt by the actions of someone whom I thought I could trust, and who I thought I could rely on. Unless, as a bloke, they really do not want to say goodbye, just drop off the face of the earth, so to speak. My choice today? I can accept either of those realities and move on! OK, here goes....
I hurt. I feel as though I have been kicked in the stomach and dragged through the virtual sky by my soul, which I, unwittingly, revealed. I am very good at hiding myself! But thank you to that person, without him, I would not be here now, writing this, and funnily enough, not feeling too strange about it! And thank you to the person who encouraged me back here, without even realising that she has done that! Well, I have told her that she has but she didn't know until I told her and I have a firm belief that if people do something good, and do something that we (as spiritual beings having a human experience) appreciate, well, myself, I like to say thank you and let them know that they have made a difference in someone's life - a POSITIVE difference!
And that is enough rabbiting for me today! And Keeping It Simple Stupid, no images today! :)
Thanks SO much for actually reading this far! Vicki :)
"I hear and forget.I see and I remember.I do and I understand."
Confucius, Spring and Autumn Period.
This would have to be one of my favourite sayings! It is how I learn, even if I remember, I do not always know but if I understand, then I understand and it is like a key turning 1000 locks simultaneously and I am flooded with a peaceful knowledge... it calms the stomach, it releases any knots and it lets me know that I am not stupid after all! The first time I ever heard this was when Wayne Dyer quoted it, and that was years ago that I heard it... and I have never, never forgotten it . So thank you Wayne and thank you Confucius!
Again, please feel free to comment and/or rate this blog! I am learning something new everyday, and today it is not to be ashamed to ask - nor to forget the reason why! So that I will know that perhaps I have helped someone, given them a giggle or a ahhhh moment... but then, the main reason I am doing this blog is for me! That is what is most important, aye?!! It is always a lovely feeling to be acknowledged!
"Let not the opportunity pass, for it may not return."
Kuai Tong, Western Han Dynasty
Thus today, it is actually the 11th and I am grabbing the opportunity to
amend my passing opportunity by doing it now! Maybe there is hope yet!!
And now to do todays! I really really really want to do this, you know!
I am not going to start something and not finish it, again - did I just say
again? Oops, another secret bites the dust! I am not very organised!
But guessing some may have noticed that already!
Thank you for reading and please feel free to comment
and /or rate this blog! I would love the feedback! :)
"To catch the tiger's cub, one must enter the tiger's den."
Ban Chao, Eastern Han Dynasty
To face my fears, I have to, shock horror, face my fears... damn it!
And I thought it would be easy!! Oh well, how many days to go?!
The journey of 365 days has started with 9 faltering steps!
Wish me luck! LOL :) I think I might need it!
"Action may not always bring happiness; but there is no happiness without action." Benjamin Disraeli
Ooooh, yes, how true is this one! I don't need to add any more bar to say I fully agree with Benjamin Disraeli - and even a little movement promotes more movement, which promotes more movement... a bit like a snowball! And one's movement has an effect on another, just like seagulls, trying to get someone's chips! :)
Sorry! Am having trouble pasting this image, but here is the link, of all the flurry of seagulls! Still learning this stuff!! :)
"A friend will ... threaten to kill anyone who tries to come into a room where you are trying on bathing suits."
Erma Bombeck, writer and humorist
... and this follows me banning me riding my exercise bike?? Bright or dumb ... depends on how I am feeling. A bit like saying I used to be indecisive but now I am not so sure! Organised? Yep, no don't about it! I did the blog for the 5th January on the 6th January and the 6th of January on the 6th of January ... Now, to NOT get on that exercise machine ...
As soon as you forbid something, it thrives.Rachel Stirling, actor.
I am going to forbid myself to get on my exercise bike every day for at least 20 minutes..... I will let you know if it works!
"A well spent day brings happy sleep."
Leonardo da Vinci 1452-1827 English Poet
A bit like the saying or quote that has been often used in my family; "doing nothing is a dangerous occupation because you never know when you have finished!" Which makes perfect sense to me! It seems, in this life, that we congratulate ourselves upon the completion of a project, that we then believe we deserve a reward, that we might pat ourselves on the back and say well done. If, like me, your thought processes itself along these lines, well, when we do nothing, we cannot know when we have finished therefore do not give ourselves a pat on the back. I am not saying that is the correct way to think, a frustrating way to think, I believe! As I suppose that I would prefer to remember this - I am a good person because of who I am, not because of what I do! I heard Marianne Williamson say that! Very wise!
"Everything that happens happens as it should, and if you observe carefully, you will find this to be so."Marcus Aurelius 121 - 180 AD Roman Emperor and Philospher
A drizzly wet day and had it not been wet and drizzly, my mate and I would have had a dry lunch and not met Herman, the lovely musician, or Rosemary and Scott, from Ottawa in Canada! Therefore it happened to be rainy and drizzly because it was meant to be so!
"You don't get to choose how you're going to die. Or when. You can decide how you are going to live. Now."Joan Baez
Had a wonderful day with a friend who dragged me out of my self imposed exile and gently forced me to go down to the Broadwater with her... and I had a wonderful time. I felt like I was going to throw up, nausea from anxiety, blechhh! But I did it anyway! And I recognised what I have been doing to myself by treating myself as I would not treat my best friend! Thank you Dale!
"Selfishness is not living as one wishes to live but asking others to live as one wishes to live."
I caught up with an a very dear friend of mine tonight - and I realised that we must be both pretty good people if we still want to know and talk to each other after 27 years! And in talking, we discovered a path or two on the way to accepting ourselves the way we are...That in sharing and speaking, we learn... and to trust ourselves to trust others! (and I am doing day two before I do day one!) I just worked out how to post a blog, I hope!! Thank you Zols!